member, 612 posts
Wed 16 Mar 2016
at 01:05
Re: Grrrr
I hate Biology. Especially practical Biology. Especially my practical biology. It is an enigma, wrapped in a mystery wrapped in OH MY GOD THE PAIN.
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Wed 16 Mar 2016
at 22:52
Selfish Anti-Rant

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 member, 528 posts
 You can call me V, just V
 Life; a journey made once
Fri 25 Mar 2016
at 05:57
Selfish Anti-Rant
I'm wishing I had someone to play cards with, or play videos games with.

When I went through a very bad period of PTSD, a friend of mine had said "call me if you need to" when I did it was in an episode. He avoided me for the next three months, and since after then only makes texts like "I saw you texted me. I thought I'd do you the favor of replying to it." and that's it. When I see him at the gaming store, he just ignores me and walks away.

Playing cards with him was fun, and I've since found myself collecting cards of the game we used to play, just to keep myself from feeling as lonely.

I used to play video games with my brother-in-law. He was the closest family I had. When my sister divorced him, that fissured our tie. I miss him, and though I've talked to him once on the phone, and occasionally on facebook, he will never be a part of my life like he was.

It feels like I gravitate toward activities I used to do with people I like, and whom once liked me. I can't keep up with the times, and often struggle to stay relevant in what people enjoy doing.

Heck, even RPOL was something my old BIL got me into.

I just wish I had something to do with someone that is a dedicated activity I can rely on.
 member, 6767 posts
 Gaming for over 30
 years, and counting!
Sat 2 Apr 2016
at 06:41
...and The Agony of Defeat
I should have been more cautious about how good things went at work yesterday.  I mean, I work on theater, in a part of the ciuntry where unions aren't very common, which means that I've got a lot of experience doing whatever needs to be done, inclucing set construction.  I've also helped friends with some general construction and renovations, so I'm no stranger to power tools and framing walls and the like.  So I wasn't totally surprised when the plans I'd drawn out for yesterday's project translated pretty smoothly into reality...a couple of small hiccups, but it actually went pretty smoothly, especially considering I was figuring it all out on paper based on having only two accurate measurements out of the dozens I should have had, ideally.

So, today, same basic project.  I actually had one more measurement for that one than I did for yesterday's...

And nothing about it worked right.  All the measurements that I had worked out in EXACTLY the same way as yesterday's project didn't work at all.  One end was too tall, the other end was too short, and in the process of trying to compensate, everything in between got screwed up.  I got a little patch of skin pinched right off the tip of my finger between two sheets of plywood.  Pretty much everything that I did for six hours is going to have to be redone.

I'm pretty sure I've figured out why the key issues arose...it's that whole thing about 'good judgment coming from experience which usually comes from bad judgment'...stupid little mistakes that I didn't catch because I don't do things like this very often.  But it's also frustrating because I'm trying to show my boss that we CAN do this stuff for ourselves, and having it go so wrong when time is a major factor isn't going to help the cause.

Nothing to do for it but go back in Monday and make it right.  The fact that the first one worked so smoothly will hopefully buy a little forgiveness.
 member, 6788 posts
 Gaming for over 30
 years, and counting!
Fri 27 May 2016
at 06:55
...and The Agony of Defeat
Is it a bad omen that I find myself daydreaming about how relieved I would be to get fired?  I'm too stubborn to quit, at least not when there's a job that someone's relying on me to do...

But I'm pretty sure if I showed up to work tomorrow and they said, 'Collect your stuff and get out,' I'd celebrate.  At least for a weekend.  Then, maybe, I'd worry about how to pay my next rent check...
 member, 621 posts
Tue 7 Jun 2016
at 04:20
...and The Agony of Defeat
Yeah...I am right there.
 member, 542 posts
 You can call me V, just V
 Life; a journey made once
Wed 8 Jun 2016
at 04:04
...and The Agony of Defeat
After months of a (face to face) game being dead the GM contacts me to join. I decline. He asks to "talk it out". I listen, he gets lukewarm response, but hey if he's willing to change his stance on a the zero point flaw, then maybe I will give him another chance. Sometimes GMs just need that extra chance to work out kinks.

Well, after four more hours of making my character, on a phone I only have seven hours each month, he gets to the flaws. I said "let's do that first" "No, no, we need to see how many points you need" "Mike!" "Seriously it will be fine" and then that phrase "trust me".  So we get to flaws. Holy crap! Why am I not surprised. Having a love interest as a dependent NPC is worth 0 points. "Why?" I ask "Oh because your arch nemesis is going to start chapter 2 with her already captured." "Why the fruit is 0 points then!" "Oh...Oh! because I don't think that flaw really comes into play all that much" "WTF! You're PLANNING on having it come into play!" I lost my cool at that point and just hung up.

He called back and I let it go to voicemail. Three times. So finally I just pass the duty off to my friend to explain to him I have a zero point flaw for his game. My interest in it. You wanna know why it's zero points, Mike? Because I have zero interest.


I'm not so much pissed at his GM style. That's BS, but okay, that's his game. That's his prerogative. It's the fact he wasted my minutes, used three of my voicemail slots, and then had the audacity to pull the same "zero point flaw" thing which started the train wreck the first time. I didn't even want to play, and I said this much very succinctly. I shouldn't have thrown him a bone and heard his long-winded plea out.


I don't even have time for my favorite games I'm supposed to be a player in and I WANT to be there for....this just ruins any chance for real time chat. Oh well...maybe next month.
 member, 685 posts
 once upon a time...
 ...there was a little pie
Wed 8 Jun 2016
at 05:03
...and The Agony of Defeat
Just a general inter-generational rant, but I am so unhappy with the direction the game systems have taken, especially the D&D ones.

When I was playing back in the late seventies early eighties, role-play was in general more popular, and mix-max power-gamers were pretty much laughed at, scoffed at, and driven out of any good game if they didn't catch on.

Each iteration of the rules becomes more and more about that style of gaming though, 3 and 3.5 was the start of the era where more effort went into designing the character than ever seemed to go into playing it. I tried fourth edition and it was disgusting, first level and I had flash and fluff and powers like a superhero! Not interested in batman versus the Orcs.

Trying fifth ed., which I have heard is an improvement, but Rangers get spells at SECOND LEVEL, which you reach after only THREE HUNDRED experience points?

It's really like the party is starting at seventh level, which in many 1st and 2nd ed games is about the time I lose interest anyway.


Clearly that is what sells I guess, and the game I am in, the other players are all gloating about how they have 'broken' the system with their incredible characters, and shocked whenever a monster even comes close to hitting them back.

How would you even go about designing an interesting system that was about building up role-play options though? Can't think of many.

Sigh... but the 1st ed games are getting rarer and rarer.

Rant, vent, snort...
 member, 248 posts
Wed 8 Jun 2016
at 05:31
...and The Agony of Defeat

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 Gaming for over 30
 years, and counting!
Fri 17 Jun 2016
at 06:47
Painful reminders
Losing a loved one right before a holiday makes for an annual jab in that empty spot they left behind.  Losing your father, right before Father's Day, adds an extra dose of bitterness to the experience.

Nineteen years, Dad.  I hope you'd be proud of the man I've become.  I know you wouldn't agree with all the choices I've made...I don't even agree with all the choices I've made.  But I think I've done a pretty good job of becoming the good man you would have wanted me to be, overall.

I miss you...
 member, 2 posts
Fri 17 Jun 2016
at 23:19
Bitter Almost-Love
How in the world are you going to call off a date just because I'm "inexperienced"? Since when is being inexperienced a bad thing. The only thing that means is that I won't try anything crazy or out of the ordinary unless you tell me to. I'm honestly not a bad guy. Yes, I work two jobs, which leaves with little sleep and even less time available to spend doing what I want to, but frankly, the money is nice (which by the way, I didn't hear you complaining about that extra money when we went to Great America and a really nice restaurant). You should've given me a chance. I would have made it well worth your while.
 member, 97 posts
Mon 11 Jul 2016
at 02:55
Banging a head against a wall
Why the ever loving french fry is it so hard for people to understand the concepts of getting in character? I mean seriously, if your going to say something is the setting, with this and the other thing as the setting, then why, for the love of God why?! , is it so hard to get people to be in character? I mean, it's not that hard. It's not even that obscure, as most people already get the concepts of the setting. So hAve people be in character! It's your job GM, so just do it. Don't belly ache, don't whine, don't make excuses, don't say "well it's not exactly the same"! Just get your players to understand that some concepts apply universally, and have them get in character.

Not...that...French frying...hard!
 member, 624 posts
Sat 16 Jul 2016
at 04:48
Banging a head against a wall
Nothing like wasting a vacation day for the close on your house to get the keys and start moving, only for them to he done after you wouldbhave gone home from work.
The paper work was done, monies were exchanged and signatures sogned before today. Were we just waiting for the Ghostbusters movie?
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Mon 18 Jul 2016
at 05:16
A journey made once, and with no two steps retread.

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Isida KepTukari
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 Elegant! Arrogant! Smart!
Mon 18 Jul 2016
at 14:59
A journey made once, and with no two steps retread.
Got home from vacation, met with our contractor to do some work on our new house, and then as soon as he left, our cat starts to poop everywhere.  And not solid poops, oh no, liquid poops.  Husband and I are basically chasing the cat around the house with paper towels and cleaner, trying to catch him before he ruins something else.  We had to lock him in the bathroom with his litter box just so we could get some sleep and not wake up to find more liquid feces on everything...

He's going to the vet in an hour.  I really hope this is just moving stress for the poor lad.
 member, 285 posts
Thu 28 Jul 2016
at 00:16
A journey made once, and with no two steps retread.
You have got to be a special kind of apple hole to invite yourself along on somebody's FAMILY vacation!

Once a year we go on vacation as a family, just us and the kids.  This year the girls are old enough to actually remember a fun vacation.  We're taking them to an amusement and water slide park a few hours away, and camping for the weekend.

Sounds like a great time.  And then our neighbor decides he's going too with his family, and asked the campground for a tent site right next to ours.  WTH?!  He's not even a close enough friend I'd call family.

 member, 39 posts
Thu 28 Jul 2016
at 02:49
A journey made once, and with no two steps retread.
That feeling when it's discovered you have Surprise!BrainCancer and you suddenly find yourself away from home and your fur-babies for over two months with only a brief week-long visit with them between the major brain surgery and the radiation/chemo, and what you really wanted/needed was your favourite game (which has always been therapeutic even when life was good) but the GM puts it on hold with the possibility of deleting it. And you can't get angry with the GM at all because you know that they, like everyone, have their own strudel to deal with and you respect that, but you're still desperate to play that character and you don't really have the energy to try to find a whole new game, go through all the joining discussion, hope you mesh with the other players, etc. And then when you try to vent about this elsewhere, nobody really seems to get it or understand how important it is to you and so you can't even get any genuine sympathy because "it's just a game."

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 Gaming for over 30
 years, and counting!
Tue 6 Sep 2016
at 17:58
A journey made once, and with no two steps retread.
Got a vent and a not-vent, so I'll get the negative out of the way first (you can go to the appropriate thread and see what I'm not-venting about there...)

Missed out on two makeup jobs over the weekend, because while I was on my way to the first one, my car blew its timing belt...in the middle of the freeway at 80-something MPH.  Busiest weekend I've had in months, coming at me...less than three months after I'd had the clutch rebuilt...days before I was going to replace the water pump (and the timing belt, since that particular model runs the timing belt off the water pump...)

Now I'm back in the market for a car.  Got through the weekend thanks to the generosity of friends, but after spending nearly $1000 on my car already this year, having to turn around and buy another car is NOT a welcome challenge.
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 Gaming :-)
 Very unlucky
Thu 8 Sep 2016
at 18:16
A journey made once, and with no two steps retread.
Today feels like it is taking forever. Speed up bloody heck. I keep looking at the clock waiting thinking it must be later. Blarg. I'm bored.
 member, 1 post
Sun 18 Sep 2016
at 17:22
Geez. I just got a profile on this website, but I'm still not used to it. I'm also on mobile, so its extremely difficult to see text and links. AAGGHHHH!!!
 member, 38 posts
Sun 18 Sep 2016
at 22:07
i really hate when players go MIA. in this instance, i think it's passive aggressive player, being a baby.
 member, 293 posts
 playing with Fire
 always burns
Tue 27 Sep 2016
at 20:27
PM frustration
Really frustrating when you're trying to run a game and the PM system goes down in that game and all you can do is play the waiting game while trying to keep your frustrated players from complaining that they can't do things in the pm system....ugh I would really just like things to be normal now.....
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Tue 27 Sep 2016
at 21:54
PM frustration

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 member, 562 posts
 You can call me V, just V
 Life; a journey made once
Wed 2 Nov 2016
at 22:20
PM frustration
I feel anxious and sad. I had a falling out with a friend almost precisely a year ago. In that year I haven't been able to shake the desire to hang-out and play a card game (something we both loved and no one else seemed to) with him.

He seems to give me the cold shoulder, and after a year I'm pretty sure he has no interest in ever hanging-out of playing cards with me. Yet he won't give a definitive reply. He's at the same hang out locations (the game shops) and it has been awkward to ignore him or interact with him only for him to ignore me.

My mother, who's not the best role-model, nonetheless said some words of wisdom. "You don't want to be with someone who doesn't want to be with you." and I understand that to be true.

I just wish there was some closure. If I knew where he stood, I could follow suit. I guess I just have to make the choice that I don't want to stay in between this state of do cordiality and and friendship. I can't be his friend if he doesn't want me to be, and it's damaging to my morale and self esteem to keep hanging on to that hope he'll turn around.

I hate losing friends. It happens so much more frequently in person than online. Yet the face to face connection, or at least hearing someone voice, is what I enjoy most.

Anyway, I don't want to dwell on it. I have some people on RPOL who've offered to be a sounding board and chat when I have the desire. I should focus on that.

I just...look at these cards, these dozens of decks I made to play with him, and it makes me wish he could see past my PTSD. But if he can't, he's not as good a friend as I'd hoped. It just makes me sad.

I see him tomorrow, as a mutual friend is taking me the shop and this guy has said he'll be there. That makes me anxious.

Oh well...

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Wed 9 Nov 2016
at 22:58
Just wow, and now I get to go to work hungover...